Longing

Today I feel far from acceptance in many ways. I have a longing for many things and for many people. I have been missing my Grandma and my Dad a lot lately and think about them so often. I long for the days when they were still here and I long for the day when I can be where they now are. I long to go to Janesville and see my daughters and my grandchildren. I long for regular physical affection from my husband. I wish we hugged more and even more than that, I wish we snuggled more - or even at all! I wish we could sleep in the same room, cuddled close to each other with his arm around me, instead of one of us in our bedroom and one of us on the couch because of his snoring. I wish I could lose weight better and faster and keep it off. I long to feel healthy and comfortable in my own body. I long to be closer to God and to better follow his will for my life. I long to see all of my children and my grandchildren have a personal relationship with God and to know that we will all spend eternity together. And I long to be the woman God wants me to be.